Janie's Blues.

 Lost in the dark imma feelin' so down
Imma pointed and laughed at like a clown
Men acta likea day own me

Dae acta like they own me
like dae owns me
owns me

de darkness surrounds cannot see
Don't even know whos me
act quietly
hope to die quickly

I've been wronged
wronged
wronged
for to long
long
long

hidin' in the dark try and come to the light
just tryin to use all my might
and win this hard fight

Imma feelin so hurt
tryin not to blurt
tryin not to retort

Hiddin away
don't wanna stay
and forced to lay

This is life day after day
just hopein ah don't have ta stay
just livin this way

"There are years that ask questions and years that answer."

    This means that throughout your life you will experiance problems and difficulties that will cause you to ask yourself what you are supposed to do and how you are going to accomplish certain things that you need to accomplish to proceed in your life. The second part of this quote means that although you will have questions about your life you will learn the answers through experiance that sometimes takes years to aquire.

    During the period in Janie's life that I have left off on in the book Janie is questioning what love is and if she will be able to obtain it, so she goes with a man and leaves her husband, in the next year of her life she may find out if she will be able to obtain love and happiness in life or if she is going to have to keep looking for the right man to show her what love feels like.

Thoughts on Love and Getting Married (Question 5)

    Does love have anything to do with getting married? In some cases there may be people who get married just because they want money or for some other anterior motive, but what does that say about the human race? If all we care about is money and greed and hatred of our fellow man?
 
    If I have to live in a world where a woman would marry a man or a man marries a woman solely for money or credentials, I don't want to live. If the human race is so corrupt that even the "sacred" bound of "holy" matrimony is corrupted... then the human race doesn't deserve what it has or in that fact, it doesn't deserve to survive.

    This IS what the human race, as a whole has become and this is the reason, after high school I am going to sever myself from the infected arm of society and wonder into my own life free from materialistic "needs" and temptations. I believe that if love has nothing to do with being married then I have nothing to do with this poisoned animalistic species as a whole.

Why you asking all them questions?

1.Does Daisy love Tom more then she loves Gatsby?
2.What building can Gatsby see from his porch?
3. Who is Toms mistress?
4.Who asks Nick to set up Gatsby and Daisy?
5.Does Mr.Wilson suspect his wife is cheating?

Thoughts on Mr. Fitzgerald

    Although this was not assigned as a blog in class I still felt I should voice my opinion on this novel "The Great Gatsby and illiterate how I feel about this great piece of  American literature.
 
   Many people I have talked have told me the same thing, that the first three chapters are boring and hard to read, but I personally believe that Fitzgerald's writing flows so well that the first few chapters are really good and I couldn't stop reading for a while, before it I finished chapter 3 and realized that I had just read chapters 1-3 in thirty minutes, I love this book. On a scale of one through ten, I would have to give this book an eight. I will enjoy reading the rest of this book asap.

A Peom in a Book

   
And so it happened
 that on a warm windy evening
 I drove over to East Egg
to see two old friends
 whom I scarcely knew at all.
 Their house was even more elaborate
 than I expected,
 a cheerful red-and-white
 Georgian Colonial mansion,
 overlooking the bay.
 The lawn started at the beach and ran
 toward the front door for a quarter of a mile,
 jumping over sun-dials and brick walks and burning gardens
finally when it reached the house drifting up
the side in bright vines as though from the momentum of its run.
The front was broken by a line of French windows,
 glowing now with reflected gold
 and wide open to the warm windy afternoon,
 and Tom Buchanan in riding clothes
 was standing with his legs apart on the front porch.
 Page 18

Conforming- Good, Bad, or Useless

    
    People always asks me why I am so different and why I don't just "act normal" or be less weird. People ask me to conform with society and I tell them "no, why should I?" I'm nice to people, I treat everyone equally and i don't act as though I am better then anyone at all. I mean, its not like I ask for much, just respect and equality, that doesn't mean I want to look and act like everybody else. I like the way I am and the way that I act. I want to wear a lock around my neck, and wear my favorite trench coat without any one calling me stupid or acting like I'm going to shoot up the school or something. I'd rather live in peace without the "popular" people trying to put me down.

    What I'm trying to say is I don't care what other people think about me, if Im cold, I'll wear my trench coat, and if I'm in love I'll wear a lock around my neck. I honestly don't care what others want me to do or what they want me to look like, because I like the way I look and act.

Outward Apperances

       I have learned many thing within my life and one of the most profound things i have learned is that outward appearances are often deceptive. I have been bullied all my life both physically and mentally and I have come to learn that a lot of the "pretty" people are some of the worst bullies of them all. This probably roots from their belief that they are better then everyone because they are better looking then everyone. For example,(I will not use real names to spare the people involved of shame) a guy normally referred to as "good looking" by the name of Ralor Todriguez would treat me like was a lesser human then he was just because I'm different. Many people who are good looking usually become popular because everyone wants to go out with them so in conclusion society today is mostly based on appearance  In my opinion society's empty love of beauty and wealth are in sequential all I want is for people to be good to each other no matter how the other looks.

Assimilation, why what and whocares

To assimilate is to take on characteristics of a surrounding species, often referred to happening among plants or this case humans. Beneatha often tries to assimilate in the play by straightening her hair to look more "white", this shows her as weak because she does not have the strength to embrace her black heritage. I see people trying to assimilate to show that they are "cool" or "hip" and so people would like them, I have tried to assimilate but I like the way I am, I love my music and my life just the way it is and would love to stay me and not try to be someone else. I would have to agree with Eric Liu's veiw on assimilation because he believes it is inevitable and it happens in such small doses it is practically impossible to realize it is happening, that is unless you are trying to assimilate.

Families or Self?

    In my personal opinion families are more important to someone then themselves, this  is because , although you may bash them or treat them bad they will always be there for you when you need them the most. Many people only focus on themselves and only care for themselves causing them to fall in to self desires such as addictions. Though one might lose themselves in these things their family is always there to help them kick the habit.
    Though families will separate and lose each other for long periods in time they will always be there to help each other out rather from a hole or a pit, they will always be there.

What I Daydream About....

    The American dream... what it is? Well, some would say its being able to fully use their freedom,or get rich quickly, maybe even to live a long and quiet life. From what I have seen, the American dream for the average person is to take more and more, to give into their envy and greed. The American dream is nothing more then the wanting of things that one does not have or need, and yes I too feel this wanting, the difference is I'm not afraid to admit it.
     My American dream is to work my way up and become an aeronautical engineer and go into space, I want to live in a small country cottage in the French countryside. This is a simple dream and is all I want.

My Biography

 When I first started school, I expected to have fun and meet new people, but after the first few years I have come to realize that school isn't all fun and games, I mean just because its so easy doesn't mean its ALL easy.  

 I have had many English classes and my share of problems that comes with it. throughout all of those classes I have learned nothing apparently because when I started English 2 and into 3 I had to throw out all of what I have learned before I came to the main campus. I feel like in for a long and hard school year, I have no clue what I'm to expect,but from what I've seen so far, I'm in for a rough ride. So, I guess as they say you learn something new everyday.